...moving through...

I've been stressed at work. I've had anxiety about work. I've not done anything wrong but for some reason the relationships at work are stressful, tense, lots of tension in the office, lots of us vs. them. It's not good. It some times keeps me awake at night, I think way too much about it, I have imaginary conversations with those people. I've allowed things to occupy my mind for too long....for two days it kept nagging at me...not something necessarily but someone.

As I was on the bus headed to work this morning my train of thought went like this:
...god it's early.
...god it's cold.
...I really hate winter.
....I need coffee.
...should I get it in the office or wait till I get to my training.
...should I take it to the training, the food service coffee is always bad.
...paper cup or the cup my friend Patrick gave me (smile).
...paper, glass will get in the way and then I'll have to carry it around.
...I love that cup. saying on the cup, "Life is not about finding yourself it's about creating yourself"
... say that statement from the cup over in my head one more time.
... think about that statement
...really think about that statement
...why do I let the scenario at work bother me so much?!
... think about that statement again.... I don't have to let that bother me.
...If I'm truly "creating myself" in this life, as the cup suggests then I choose to be a person who is not bothered by petty, silly office politics. I choose to create a version of me where those things don't worry me or keep me awake at night.
...whew...
...coffee...I really need coffee.