again and again and again...

the cycle is so present...

always present...

whether in my written notes or my online blog there is me getting excited about something, getting lost in the pursuit and then musing about it and stating that I've learned something only to repeat it...

why?

I'm hear again, well, sorta... my friend Mike said to me today, if you would only make a decision to settle on something. You have amazing energy and talent but you just need to settle on something. I am simply not sure what that is... still... not sure of so many things.

I'm enjoying life though... have a great job... have nice friends... maybe i just have inflated expectations about what life is suppossed to be? maybe I just want too much?

not sure... just saying.

life is good.

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