should I look...

do you want me to look at you? is it rude to... or not to? does it hurt more when I don't look at you or when I do and look away? do you want to disappear? do you want to be seen?  do you spend your life crying out inside? are you hungry for a glance? do you want to scream? do you hurt and long for us to see who you really are? do you feel that you are trapped in a canvas that is not your face? how do you feel? how do you wake everyday and start again? how did your face get so deformed? 

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